All You Have Is Now.: 2009

Friday, October 23, 2009

One Day. (Remixed)

As that One Day
gets closer and closer
Memories invade my mind
more than ever
The tears
flood my eyes
And my heart breaks
more and more.

Thursday, September 24, 2009

Tonight.

Tonight
As I drove by
A certain bookstore
The first two months
After we first met
Instantly
Flashed before me.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Tonight, as I was walking to my scooter from the tenth floor of Brandon's condo, I was trying to decide which route I should take home. I had to choose between the shortest way or the most scenic way. Well, I chose the scenic route home. I mounted my scooter and took off. I drove down Peachtree and Tenth and down Monroe to Piedmont. I turned right on Cheshire Bridge. I was coming up on Jungle and Heretic when I saw someone walking on the sidewalk. He looked familiar from the back so I slowed down as I passed by. It was one of my best friends, Chris. Chris has been dealing with addiction for almost three years now. He's had some moments of sobriety, but this wasn't one of them. I pulled over and waited for him to approach me. I know it looked pretty sketchy being on Cheshire Bridge, LOL. Anyways, he looked awful and smelled just as bad. Beads of sweat on his forehead. Hair disheveled. Busted lip. We spoke for a minute and he asked if I could buy him something to eat and drink. I knew I shouldn't, but I agreed to it anyways. We met up at the Citgo down the street. I bought him a bottle of Nesquik and a banana. Some people would say that I am an enabler, and perhaps I am, but that's not what the heart on my left forearm and the one in my chest tell me. Love. Love. Love. That is what I am here for. That is my purpose in life. And I have a lot of it. I may die with a lot of battle wounds on my heart, but it the end, all you need is love.

To end, I keep thinking to myself, I could have went the short route home, but I didn't.

Was this a coincidence, or the work of something greater?

Clearly, my answer would be Love.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

One Day.

One day
I will be more than
a phone call away.

One day
I will be here
and you will be there.

One day
I will live more than
7 miles away.

One day
we will wonder
if our time here together
could have been spent any better.

One day
you will run away with your lover
once again.

And that one day
will serve as
the ultimate heartbreak.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Dealing with Breakups.

Greetings!

We've only been friends on Facebook for a few weeks now and I don't believe we've exchanged hello's.

I've been consumed with reading your status updates for a few minutes now. Breakups aren't easy. Duh. I don't know how long you guys were together, but that really doesn't matter when you like/love someone. I hope, by some of the things I say, help you in moving on, albeit, most will not be things you want to hear.

Your most recent status mentions that you want to die. If any individual makes you feel like this, were they ever really worth all the emotions in the first place? Of course one would not think of this when things are going good. Sadly, that is the past and this is now...

Another status update refers to the dreams coming when you close your eyes. I once wrote a blog about memories. Sooner or later, you begin to realize that memories are only a reflection of the past. Of how things used to be. And that there is no going back. Memories are hopeless...

One final status update that I would like to comment asked when does the hurt stop. Honestly, that's up to you. The pain will stay around as long as you allow it to.

So, what do you now? The ball is in your court...

Do you say, today I'm going to move on and be thankful for the time I had with this person and begin the healing process?

Or do you say, today I'm going to continue to let myself hurt and hope for something that may never happen only to prolong the pain?

The decision is yours only.

Free your mind.

I know it's not easy.

I will share my story with you, if you'd like.

Best of luck.

Justin